as women it's natural for us to have self esteem issues, right?
this is what i'm telling myself anyway.
girls tend to be SO emotional, full of DRAMA, whiney, "does this make me look fat?"
this is why i don't like females in general.
i don't do DRAMA!!
(good thing i have 2 girls of my own right?? heaven help me!)
the past few days i've felt "squishy"
i don't enjoy that feeling.
growing up, i've always been pretty thin.
good genetics are a blessing!!
i've weighed right around the same weight since junior high.
and while i pretty much skipped size zeros,
i've always worn the same size jeans.
except when i'm preggers.
and even then, i'm fortunate enough to only have to go up a couple sizes rather than buy maternity pants.
they never fit right and are never long enough.
and i refuse to pay the price for the brands that would.
32 week with little mookie - photo by Brittany Davis Photography
this post is not meant to brag
i just need to vent a bit on my current squishy-ness
i've given birth to 3 children
most bodies don't completely bounce back from bearing children
mine included
and while i've never been 'big', i've always been 'soft'
no flat tummy for me EVER
having my children was beautiful
and i feel incredibly blessed that i was able to conceive, carry and birth them myself
this is what i'm telling myself anyway.
girls tend to be SO emotional, full of DRAMA, whiney, "does this make me look fat?"
this is why i don't like females in general.
i don't do DRAMA!!
(good thing i have 2 girls of my own right?? heaven help me!)
the past few days i've felt "squishy"
i don't enjoy that feeling.
growing up, i've always been pretty thin.
good genetics are a blessing!!
i've weighed right around the same weight since junior high.
and while i pretty much skipped size zeros,
i've always worn the same size jeans.
except when i'm preggers.
and even then, i'm fortunate enough to only have to go up a couple sizes rather than buy maternity pants.
they never fit right and are never long enough.
and i refuse to pay the price for the brands that would.
32 week with little mookie - photo by Brittany Davis Photography
this post is not meant to brag
i just need to vent a bit on my current squishy-ness
i've given birth to 3 children
most bodies don't completely bounce back from bearing children
mine included
and while i've never been 'big', i've always been 'soft'
no flat tummy for me EVER
having my children was beautiful
and i feel incredibly blessed that i was able to conceive, carry and birth them myself
32 weeks with Little Mookie - photo by Brittany davis Photography
my body was very accommodating to carrying a child
and i'm grateful for that
and while the baby weight from Baby Girl fell off on it's own
i had to work to get it off with Miss
and work even harder to get back to pre-baby weight with Mookie
however, i've kind of stopped exercising
and eating right
and i drink a LOT of soda
and no water
some days i don't drink any water at all.
bad, i know.
my body was very accommodating to carrying a child
and i'm grateful for that
and while the baby weight from Baby Girl fell off on it's own
i had to work to get it off with Miss
and work even harder to get back to pre-baby weight with Mookie
however, i've kind of stopped exercising
and eating right
and i drink a LOT of soda
and no water
some days i don't drink any water at all.
bad, i know.
so here's what i'm getting at, people.
i'm not happy with my body in it's current state.
and while i may not be big, and while you might think, "you have nothing to worry about"
it's an issue for me
i've always struggled with self esteem and body image
just like so many girls do at some point
i completely envy those that don't go through it!!
quite often i look at my handsome hubs and wonder how in the world i got so lucky
he's in love with me just as much as i am completely in love with him
why did he choose me out of any other girl he could have had?
and trust me, he could have had anyone.
did you see his picture up there??
HOT!!
i look at my children and wonder how i was so blessed to get such wonderful kids
kids that are well behaved
love unconditionally
laugh full belly
are so so SO cute
i am a blessed woman.
and yet i struggle.
trials of life, man.
they're rude.
SO... rather than sit and HOPE that this squishy-ness goes away on it's own
while i sit with a soda in hand watching my kids play, eating oreos by the handful late at night, not exercising in the slightest
i'm going to fix it.
myself.
with the support of others of course. :)
because that's another blessing in my life - amazing family and friends
NO MORE SODA
i told hubs he's not allowed to let me drink one!!
it's a weakness for me. i have 2 or 3 a day. :)
EXERCISE
i'm signed up for a 5k on june 11.
totally not ready, but i'm going to be as prepared as possible between now and then starting today.
DRINK WATER
while i'm not limiting myself to ONLY water, i certainly need to be drinking more of it.
somehow i feel like putting all of this here
makes me more responsible and accountable for my actions related to it
here's to a better outlook on life, body image and level of self esteem!!
what about you??
anything you're struggling with?
any advice for me??
hit me with it! :)
i'm not happy with my body in it's current state.
and while i may not be big, and while you might think, "you have nothing to worry about"
it's an issue for me
i've always struggled with self esteem and body image
just like so many girls do at some point
i completely envy those that don't go through it!!
quite often i look at my handsome hubs and wonder how in the world i got so lucky
he's in love with me just as much as i am completely in love with him
why did he choose me out of any other girl he could have had?
and trust me, he could have had anyone.
did you see his picture up there??
HOT!!
i look at my children and wonder how i was so blessed to get such wonderful kids
kids that are well behaved
love unconditionally
laugh full belly
are so so SO cute
i am a blessed woman.
and yet i struggle.
trials of life, man.
they're rude.
SO... rather than sit and HOPE that this squishy-ness goes away on it's own
while i sit with a soda in hand watching my kids play, eating oreos by the handful late at night, not exercising in the slightest
i'm going to fix it.
myself.
with the support of others of course. :)
because that's another blessing in my life - amazing family and friends
NO MORE SODA
i told hubs he's not allowed to let me drink one!!
it's a weakness for me. i have 2 or 3 a day. :)
EXERCISE
i'm signed up for a 5k on june 11.
totally not ready, but i'm going to be as prepared as possible between now and then starting today.
DRINK WATER
while i'm not limiting myself to ONLY water, i certainly need to be drinking more of it.
somehow i feel like putting all of this here
makes me more responsible and accountable for my actions related to it
here's to a better outlook on life, body image and level of self esteem!!
what about you??
anything you're struggling with?
any advice for me??
hit me with it! :)