Thursday, April 18, 2013

once upon a time

here's a little story...

 once upon a time, i had a blog i posted on. the end.

 here's another story...

 once upon a time, i posted again on afore mentioned blog. the end.

 ugh. you guys, i'm bad at blogging. i know this. and right now i'm mostly okay with it. but i want to do better! so here's my first post (in far too long) and hopefully i'll get better at it, right? right. that's my story, i'm sticking to it. sometimes my brain just goes, goes, goes. but never when i'm in a spot to actually write down whatever it is i'm thinking about. my favorite thoughts for blogging and sewing and such come when i'm running, in the shower or in the middle of something i NEED to get finished. today's post thoughts came to me yesterday while i was trying to finished Teacher Appreciation gifts (monogrammed totes) for my girls' school teachers. that need to be done by friday. that's tomorrow. awesome. anywho. i decided to stop for a few minutes and quickly scribble down the jumble of words filling my head and see if i could make sense of them. so here goes.

 do you ever feel like you need to be a part of something but don't know what? that's how i'm feeling today. and while that could (and generally DOES) apply to many facets in my life, today my mind is geared towards a business venture. i want to be part of something. something BIG. something FUN. but i don't want to be in charge. (which is why my shop is so here, there and everywhere) second in command? done. i can do that. head honcho? no thanks, i'll pass. i would be the. best. assistant. ever. as in EVER-EVER. for anything really. i like learning the ins and outs of things. how things work and why they work best that way. (i like to be efficient) i like knowing what's going on. i like being someone with answers when questions come up. i like the feeling that people can count on me to be able to hold the fort down if need be. i like being (kindly) told/shown/asked what to do and do it well. i was raised to do my best and do it right the first time around. that being said, let's get honest for a second, shall we?

 the beginning of every year tends to be harder for my family (financially) than the rest of the year. with hubs' job being outside, hours are slow and small with the ever-changing Utah weather. hubs is amazing and works hard with the best work ethic ever (several people have told me how hard and awesome a worker he is - proud wifey right here!). but when things get tight, i want to help out. more than what i do on a day-to-day basis of taking care of the kiddos and house stuff. right now i still have Mookie at home with me. he's not quite 3 so we still have a couple more years of him being home all day. i also have a daughter in kindergarten and a daughter in 2nd grade. (half day and full day) i also babysit my best friend's 8 month old boy (4-5 days a week). add to that, that i have an additional 2 girls on fridays for a few hours after school and you can maybe see why getting a traditional job kinda wouldn't work. if i didn't have to sleep, i could probably work in a graveyard shift, but then when would i see my husband? i wouldn't, and that's just not an option right now. family comes first and foremost, that's rule #1. (i do get paid for all the babysitting tho)

 as i mentioned, i have a shop. it's not open right now, but it's there. i go in spurts with it. sometimes i get really excited about things and work work work and get a bunch of things done BUT the trade off for that is that i zone out. from everything. when i work, i don't really get hungry or feel like taking a break. i just want to get things done and THEN stop for the day. the problem with that is that my family still wants to eat, the laundry still needs to get done, the house still needs to be cleaned, the kids still need help with homework and one-on-one time, my husband still needs time for just us -- and i haven't yet found the balance. after a while of working, things start to feel like i HAVE to do them. making things becomes a chore and i hate that. i get really stubborn when i feel like i HAVE to do something. and why have a shop full of things that feel like chores? there's no joy in that and i have plenty of chores to do as it is. i love sewing. i always have. i have loved it for the 17 years that i have been sewing and it is the only hobby that i've really stuck with. everything else is fun for about a week and then gets put away for months. "Jack of all trades, Master of none" <--- yep, that's me.

so where do i go from here?  i need something i can do from home, probably part time, flexible hours and reasonable deadlines.  i would love to help out with occasional events/markets/boutiques.  even blog posts/tutorials. (so long as i'm told what to do them on, of course, haha!)  anyone know of a dream job liek the one i just described??  anyone?  anyone?  bueller? ;)  no?  that's ok.  (but seriously, let me know if you do...)  sometimes it just helps for me to get jumbly thoughts out of my head so i can think more clearly.

in the mean time, here are the totes i've been working on for my girls' teachers.  nothing super fancy, but i hope they will find them useful.  awesome teachers are the best and i appreciate all of their hard work!  they do what i cannot and do such an amazing job of it!

come play!

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Shop Relaunch


with a LOT of help, guidance, reassurance and love
i've finally got my shop up and really running again!
Brittany is a strong and very patient woman to have helped me get to this point!
i'm forever grateful for her!!
(love you, girlfriend!!)

just a few (ok, a bunch) pictures to show ya what i've got in the shop now!!

chevron clutches

fabric button earrings
little guy bow ties

how cute are these boys!?

bow tie headbands for girls/ladies

fabric button hairpins

jersey knit maxi skirts
(awesome for maternity wear!)

one of a kind totes

zipper pouches
and i haven't even listed everything in the shop yet!!  eek!

i still have a few one-of-a-kind women's dresses, a new bag and more styles of zippered pouches and clutches to make and list!  i'm just so  happy to be at this point!!  :)

love you all!!  thanks for being patient with me!!

**all pictures by Tiffany of Adore Photography**

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

back in the day...

i was looking thru posts on my private family blog and found this one from the day (or thereabouts) i went to lunch with Brittany and ended up creating my etsy shop and starting this blog.  :)  it's another good reminder that i'm doing what i love.  :)

January 28, 2011

it seemed like it was going to be a normal day in the life of me when i set out for MOLLY'S (favorite restaurant in Provo - check it out if you know what's good for ya!) on wednesday this week.

met my long-time, awesome friend & photographer Brittany for lunch. delicious. and now, all of a sudden, i have an etsy shop.

how did this happen in an hour's time??? well, i'm not sure, but i CAN tell you that i am BEYOND excited about it! it's still so new and nothing is posted or listed, but the idea wheels are a-turnin' and i can't seem to get things done fast enough! household chores and eating are making their way to the bottom of my "to-do" list.

i also started a new blog for it. little mookie is the name, random crafting my game. named for my little man. i tried really hard to find a name that encompasses all of my kids, but it was just too much. i didn't want it to be a mouth full of word vomit that would be too difficult to put to memory. or your google reader.

as far as the "picture a day"stuff... let's be honest. you and i both knew it wasn't going to last. i'm just not good at doing something every day. which maybe isn't a good sign for my etsy???

either way, i've been wanting to do this for a long, long time. thought about it MANY a time and just didn't have the motivation, inspiration or kick in the pants to actually go thru with it! (thank you Brittany!) but it's here, it's now, it's a work in progress and i love it. :)

wish me luck!!!