why is that? why is it that we as women do that to ourselves? not to say that men can't/don't do it as well, but it just seems so much more prevalent in women. or maybe it's just me. i dunno. some days i can handle it, laugh it off as the joke it's meant to be. and other days it just eats at me. hangs out in the back of my mind, always there to put me in my place if i get feeling a little too good about myself. stupid bad self-talk.
i hate how it makes me question everything about myself.
i'll never be the kind to turn heads.
why even try to work out if it's not going to work anyway?
do i just stop and be stuck the way i am now forever?
or worse than i am now?
he said it trying to be funny, but is that what's really on his mind?
you're being too sensitive, he didn't mean it.... right?
it's like a constant circle of self-abuse. you think one thing that might be positive, but then a question comes up that turns it right back into negative. i hate that. i hate what it does to me. i hate what it does to us. only i'm not quite sure how to fix it. all i know is that it's a continual work in progress for me.
today is a new day. a chance to push it behind me and look to a brighter day.